When I was about ten years old, I was part of a singing group. I don’t think I was that good of a singer, I really don’t know. I have always enjoyed singing but mostly singing in the shower/kitchen/car, not in front of strangers. So, I am in this singing group and my teacher, Susan, asks me if I want to sing a solo. In front of a lot of people. On a stage. I didn’t want to. I was terrified but she had confidence in me, so I said I would do it.
I practiced singing the song, “I Wonder as I Wander”, a Christmas carol. Showtime came and I was scared to death and sang the song and probably ran off the stage as fast as I could. Later on, I saw the video of me singing and I could tell I was super nervous and I didn’t sound that great. But guess what, Susan told me I had done awesome. My parents were encouraging too.
I had never done something like that. I am more of a back row person, in classes, at church. I have lots of ideas and thoughts but sharing them is not my thing (hence the writing). But going out on a limb like that was huge for me. I didn’t continue with my singing career but I remember that experience, now, 25 years later. I even feel nervous just thinking about it! But even more than the nervousness, was the pride that Susan believed in me and thought that I should be the one to sing the solo. Maybe there were better singers and better performers but she chose me. I think it was to help my confidence. At that time in my life, I needed the boost and I am so glad she gave it to me.